24 November 2011


So I could sit here and write this huge long eloquent thing about all the things I'm thankful for on this Thanksgiving 2011, but I'm sure the list would be pretty cliched. "I'm thankful for my family, friends and loved ones. . . yada yada yada." And although there is nothing wrong to be thankful for those things, I'm not putting that down in any nature, it's just not what I want to write here. And let's just clarify, I truly am thankful for my family, friends, and loved ones. For the house that I live in, the food I'm afforded to consume, and the lifestyle that I grew up in.

But what I'm really thankful for this year is you. Does that sound cheesy and cliched? I hope so. One thing that Virginia Woolf taught me (Between the Acts) is that cliches are cliches because sometimes the best things are said in cliches. It's just how you make them your own. 

So now that I've got you thinking I'm the biggest hypocrite in the nation who went from "I'm not going to be cliched" to "I love cliches", lets get back on point. I'm thankful for you, the internet, and my blog. I'm thankful for it because IT (You, The Internet, My Blog) has afforded me the opportunity to be who I want to be, shamelessly, throwing all insecurities to the wind. I may be a confident person, with a strong personality, to those who know me in "real" life (whatever that is). But they don't really know me.

IT (You, The Internet, My Blog) has allowed me to make something of myself, instead of standing and waiting for life to happen. IT has made me happier, more confident, and more sure of what I really want to do with my life, who I want to be. I was completely unsure and insecure about starting this whole thing up again, but I did it anyway, and I'm completely happy and content with the success I have had, whatever success is measured by.

And if you must know, this (My Blog) isn't that successful. But any amount of success I receive, I'm thankful for. It's just the validation that I seek. The validation that I can do what I want, be who I want, and people will stand up and listen and appreciate it. Because I feel like all my life (and I'm sure there are plenty of us, almost all who feel this way) have given up on things I've wanted to do out of self doubt. Out of lack of ambition or fear of rejection. This is my life, this is it. I want to make it my own, even if I am just between the acts.

So thank you. And have a wonderful, fulfilled Thanksgiving Holiday.


Rachel Beth

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